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Lately I have been miserable and I am not really sure why. Can't… 
7th-Nov-2006 08:45 pm
Lately I have been miserable and I am not really sure why.
Can't figure it out and it is really bothering me.
My insecurities have been at an all time high, which is causing me to be overly sensitive to anything and everything.
Maybe it is not drinking and smoking that is causing some sort of chemical imbalance, maybe it is the fact I got my IUD out and so my hormones are attempting to level themselves out. Who knows?
All I know is that I want things to be different.... soon.

I am over-stressing everything...possibly having to move,not having enough money-ever-even though I make good money,all the weight I have gained back,what a disarray my house is currently in, the fact I keep getting my period, the whole finding out about my ex( I could care less about him personally, but it is so not fair that he gets to be 'happy family' and I can't)...

Hopefully something will change soon because if it continues on like this no good will come of it .....
8th-Nov-2006 03:03 am (UTC)
maybe make a change happen
8th-Nov-2006 03:58 am (UTC)
yeah I am actually considering a move-just not sure and I have a few optionsa dn things to think about first

things always work out eventually though
8th-Nov-2006 02:55 pm (UTC)
Yr IUD is def messing with you. It will get better
9th-Nov-2006 06:39 pm (UTC)
yeah i figured but it has been out for 3 months now so I would think that everything should be back to normal...
8th-Nov-2006 10:40 pm (UTC) - Deep breath darling...
Like you said, things always work out eventually. Call me if you need to talk.
9th-Nov-2006 06:38 pm (UTC) - Re: Deep breath darling...
thanks Jodi, I appreciate the offer,but as we both know things always work out....eventually
9th-Nov-2006 01:18 am (UTC)
Hang in there love...call if you need...I still have your shoes!
9th-Nov-2006 06:40 pm (UTC)
how have you handle this for so long? every month thinking 'maybe' and then ...

this sucks, and i know stressing about it does more damage but it is so hard not to stress*sigh*

9th-Nov-2006 07:19 pm (UTC)
It sucks. It keeps right on sucking every month. There is no way to make it any easier at all but talking helps keep you from going completely crazy. The hard part is that most of your friends will only listen to you whine or rant so many times before they are worn out and can't deal anymore as well. At least I will always be willing to listen because I've been there and know the fucking complete hell that it is...
9th-Nov-2006 07:37 pm (UTC)
thanks so much. really though i have no reason for any concern right now,it has only been 3 months...but grrrr, now that I have decided, I want it to happen. I was joking with Jeremy the other day that the longer this takes the less I think it is a good idea..hehe..which is so not true...but it gives me more time to think of all the 'what ifs'...what if we don't have enough, what if i am too old, what if.... just crazy stuff!

oh and it makes me wish I was still smoking and drinking HaHa
9th-Nov-2006 08:03 pm (UTC)
No kidding right? Three months is not bad, but if you get to six month with no luck see your doc. Unfortunately for us gals 23 really is the prime age for babies physically although a completely stupid age for babies finacially...
9th-Nov-2006 08:23 pm (UTC)
6 months is my plan...(i listened to you) so if 6 months goes by and nothing, then I will go to Dr Davila

but honestly we are trying to be semi-casual, trying not to stress etc

but it is still depressing. oh and of course the fact that last month I ovulated in Canada did not help- hehe
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